Note to Self and The Adult Violet: June 24, 2007
It is never a good idea to try to refinish a dresser in one day.
The dresser that was in your room, Young Violet, is the same dresser that was in my room when I was your age. I don’t remember what color it was back then, but sometime during my teenage years it became green. It is currently green…and brown…and some color I can’t even name. I want this project to mysteriously complete itself so that we can put your clothes away. I am so sorry for messing up your clean little room and then leaving it a mess for more than a day. I sorted through all of your clothes and put them into neat little stacks on your bed so they would be easy to put right away.
Last night when you crawled into bed, you just moved a couple of stacks and snuggled up to your sweatshirts. You are such an adaptable little girl. This makes me proud and sad at the same time. I’m sorry that I can’t get it together for you. I keep thinking that tomorrow will be better; but tomorrow seems to bring only another disaster to distract me from what is important. Please know that my current inability to finish your dresser is not a reflection of how I care for you. You are truly a treasure. I know that you are a blessing. Thank you for loving me… in-spite of me.